It’s proper that right below me as I write is my last post “Don’t Believe Everything You Think”. I need to practice this now in this very moment. Since being ill with Mast Cell Disease I have gained at least a person in size. When I was watching the video I had to fight with my self concept issues and get over the thought I have to hide because I’ve changed in personal appearance. So here we go…Mission accomplished. Acceptance discovered and even a sprinkle of compassion thrown in to a person who has been through the fight of their life and continues daily with this unpredictable disease. Inside her, the little girl who suffered through the real journey is healing and feeling loved for who she was and is..right now, in this moment.
Namaste to all
Finding Heart Horse will break your heart, then stitch it back together with hope, gumption, and something we fellow adoptees like to call “adoptee resilience.” Although the first installment of Claire Hitchon’s memoir isn’t specifically about her adoption, we can see the fallout from a flawed institution that left her to be raised by an abusive mother and an emotionally impotent father. Claire knows deeply that something is wrong with them, but incorrectly believes in her young adult years that the fault ultimately lies with her-self.
But there exists something deep within her, a strength, an awareness of her basic goodness that allows Hitchon to survive living on the streets, prison and debilitating abuse of all kinds. The author uses her raw creativity and considerable artistic talents to find solace from her own personal demons, ultimately allowing her to connect with that enlivened horse spirit that she knows is buried under layers upon layers of trauma, self-hate, and utter confusion as to how to live life.
Hitchon leaves no holds barred in relating the exciting, yet devastating lifestyle she leads while coming of age in Toronto. I cannot wait to read the second installment of her memoir, The Wall of Secrets.
Adult Adoptee in Reunion
Author of Adopted Reality, A Memoir
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