Its been a struggle this week. Well, lots of weeks actually but particularly this one….this moment. Eagle feathers have always held special meaning for me and I’ve accumulated a nice sized collection. All have appeared when my spirit guides have been watching, guarding and all-knowing, that in this particular moment, I need a sign.
A sign to continue, a sign to end, a sign to let go, a sign to be still. They answer it all. Yesterday, I went for a short walk and there it was. Slightly hidden out of view with only the very tip showing. Had I not been watching, observing, walking mindfully (which is all you can do when you are carrying O2 and being walked by a blind dog) I would have missed it.
I have been sequestered. Sequestered because I’ve been in a terrible mast cell reaction. Sequestered because I’ve just now, this very moment submitted the last edit of the sequel to Finding Heart Horse…
The Wall of Secrets
Memoir of The Almost Daughter
The experience of re reading, re writing, re reading again, over and over and over during a mast cell flare is literally indescribable. I’m also awaiting the call to travel to Vancouver for the birth of my first GrandOne at the same time I’m writing again, reading again about when I gave birth and the intense realization of my birth mothers pain.
Add in to the mix, National Adoption Awareness Month, National Adoption Day and this years taking back the power to speak by adoptees #flipthescript. The cyber world has been bombarded by post after post from all sides…trigger after trigger…It’s been a struggle, the tears have been many, the illness horrific, the editing exhausting, debilitating at times. There was a deadline but I also wanted it done before I set out to welcome a new being.
Though it all, the newest eagle feather sat beside me. I was also fortunate to have a treasured adoptee friend present, although miles away, with words of compassion and the understanding of how it is, what it is and the recognition that even a few words of kindness can make a huge difference…thank you Lucy.
The good news is, The Wall of Secrets is on its way!
Next step, designing the cover and building my platform which must be stronger for a new launch to a new place.
A Place of Surrender
‘The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace.
Anything you accept fully will take you into peace.
This is the miracle of surrender
If you haven’t already, you must read Finding Heart Horse. It’s a book of hope, strength, resilience
Life always returns to the Heart
Hay House Radio Interview